winter

looks like this time is winter for my space. last year at same time, it went for hibernation, and took months to recover. past again looks like repeating.

it isn't that things aren't happening. a lot of new buds i m feeling around. things rushing at professional front. i don't know whether this is mental block or just a bit busier schedule or attempt to cope up with changes.

whatever it is, i am happy..

Beautiful life is just an imagination…but life is more beautiful than our imagination. - Anonymous

words don't say it

confused, happy, perplexed, sad, distracted, worried, sure, unsure, life, future, destiny, we, amazed, dreaming, lost..

PS: Yes I am lost.

its not fun

to see a dream, where you have to give up your aim,
to actually understand what getting frightened means,
to feel the fear of being estranged by people who assured,
to handle the dejected heart that isn't ready to face the world..



PS: That is not the end to it, I am feeling much more, but don't have words.

what..??

Sometimes, despite of the fact that the problem is simply technical, we cannot go and explain it to anyone..( that actually means "anyone"; PLEASE don't come and ask me). None can get what is happening, the reasons, the issues, the implications (neither family nor friends and off course not acquaintance).. and over all this, sometimes we don't have a heart to explain..

When for months you have felt things are going fine with you, looked on track.. despite of the problems you had strong assurances that these problems are not going to be a problem with this kid. But all of a sudden in a matter of a moment you come to know that assurance was in vain, you were thrown away months back itself.. People suggest you to give a new start.

How could they even imagine that, expecting that from me. It could be a sentence for them but to me it looked a disaster..

fair Thee

every creature has its own distinct statement of comfort and ease,
but for a moment they reduce to same level, being the creation of fair Thee...

PS: click on the image for clear view.

rains

yes.. i think they will remain the loveliest forever (to me). At the rough and hard moments, when human as well as the nature looks dull, tired by the work pressure, it cheers up everyone(/thing) around. Whether its that first small drop at the arrival of monsoon or the sudden drizzling, it always knows how to bring smile and satisfaction to creatures on earth.

Yesterday evening we had the later of two. But it was perfect. Actually it knows how to be perfect in the world of imperfects (..i know it is sounding so illogical, anyways..). There were some winds which uprooted a couple of trees, but despite of everything, evening couldn't have been better than the one I had yesterday. I was all by myself, just looking at the greener shade of trees (they seemed to be blushing). The noisy-mind that was totally clattered, settles down, and is at peace with such a sight. And then what added to such a moment is a slow walk around the campus.. with drops still around it made me look funny, to people rushing to their destinations, but only I knew the pleasure I felt..

I faced the sky, and drops washed away the worries from my eyes..