memories

When they left kanpur, I never imagined that we will be meet again some day..i thought its too far away...as a collection of memories from kanpur i made this video (it was the first one I did...so very raw)..

But now when we met, it was like a dream come true...It was all so different.
I was so amused to hear full sentences from Aryaman. When he got down from lap, I expected him to jump, only late to realise, he is big now, nd his feet can touch floor easily..


Hope there will be more such moments...

tired yet i will miss these days

It is around 1700 kms on road, 5200 kms on rail and 5200 kms by air in 25 days (includes journey to westen and then to the southern most part of the country). Some of the parts were redundant, but could not be avoided due to some or the other reasons..
I like to travel, but never got to do as much as this month..and as a result i am tired of travelling, atleast for a while..although I have enjoyed these few days like anything. People with whom I travelled (whether it be family or friends) have made these days memorable... :)


Nothing could have been more relaxing than those blue waters..

and what could have been more enjoyable than travelling in those narrowroads with everything green around...

a very pleasant surprise

Today around 11 am when I was busy with some ridge regression stuff, someone from office upstairs came down, and said that I have a visitor at hostel. Actually someone from hostel office called in department. My first reaction was, he has mistaken, as I am not expecting anyone. Anyways I started for hostel. On the way met 2 juniors, who informed me that two old uncles are sitting in the office, and they are some bengali fellows, and they are claiming to be my father's friends. Now I was totally surprised, amused, shocked, a bit scared and full of questions to myself until I reached hostel. And what was next I could never dream even.

I used to go for morning walks this summer, which I have discontinued after vacation in July, due to busy schedule, despite of the fact that I enjoyed it more than many things I do now. There I became friend with many old people (that doesn't mean I don't talk to my generation ones, but I never found many). We shared smiles, Hi and Hello, sometimes 'why didn't u come yesterday'..thats it. Some talked even..like what are u doing where do u stay and all those stuffs..and few them liked the fact that I am going to study further.

So the story goes like this. When I was not seen there for 3 months, so some of them were sort of worried that she used to stay at hostel, so lets see everything is fine with her. And they came to find me out. It may sound strange that how and why should someone get worried for a total stranger. May be when they are far from their own kids, then they find reflection of them in others..there worries get refracted...

So we had a cup of coffee, talked for a while, and they left with a promise from me to resume walk. Anyways it was a very beautiful surprise.

Keep Smiling Forever

so my little brother...though now you are no more as little as in this old memory...you will be a year older today. Times have changed and we are far apart, but over this distance we have become closer, as the time passes by. Always trusted you, and and have shared every secret,wish we will always have the same warmth in our relation.

Wishing you all smiles and joys forever.
A Very Happy Birthday.

Khatam Afsana ho gaya

Anjane anddithe do dil mile, vaqat sohana ho gaya.
Karte mel milaya sacha, sada sama suhana ho gaya
Parwar khidiya naal khushiyan, ghar ashiyana ho gaya
Oh meri diwani ho gayi, mai uhda diwana ho gaya
Aayi bhi oh gayi vi oh, khatam afsana ho gaya

Kathe rehnde, dukh sukh sehnde, din change mande saath saal zamana ho gaya
Jis di pujje audh tise kaun rakhai, gurbani furmana ho gaya
Awan jaan ik khel rab da, bas bimari bahana ho gaya
Naal bimariyan darad de dukhi si, dillon sukhi ho chupke hi jana ho gaya
Aayi bhi oh gayi vi oh, khatam afsana ho gaya

Supne vich mai ayi vekhi, kaihendi sach sachi hamdardi
Piyare jiwan supna samjho, nale dithi akhiyan bhardi
Socha, chinta di chikha na saiheni paindi, nirbhau je kar mai na mardi
Chup kite hi mai sochan, oh vi soche, lekha jivan chukana ho gaya
Aayi bhi oh gayi vi oh, khatam afsana ho gaya

Simran path vich man nahi lagda, mushkil sama nibhana ho gaya
Dardi dil dukhan da bharya, dora-sharir-kapda purana ho gaya
Sabar piyala hajam nahi honda, vekh tamasha rab da mai diwana ho gaya
Uska raha na rab ka, nirbhau be thakana ho gaya
Aayi bhi oh gayi vi oh, khatam afsana ho gaya.
                                             -NIRBHAU

I was trying to find out this poem written by my grandpa since his birthday in February..atlast I got it so thought to share here. He wrote this after my grandma passed away.
As its in punjabi and written in gurmukhi script actually..so transliteration might make it bit difficult to understand.

Who showed the path

In this long journey, called life, we come across different people. Each moment witnesses an encounter with a person, who goes by and teaches us some lesson. And that’s the way life is, discovering something or the other at each instant, whether consciously or unconsciously. So in a way the world around us is a teacher.
But all of a sudden, today I feel like thanking all my teachers (though its not the occasion of teacher’s day or guru poornima, but it is something more important to me).
There are some people in my life who have direct influence on what I am now, and more importantly what I want to become. They have enlightened my path with their experiences and guidance. It is because of there direction that I know what I want out of myself.



Papa: Man of basics
Starting with the most important person. My first teacher, because of whom I always enjoyed mathematics and loved it like anything, when many around hated it. He is responsible for my interest, which is carried on uptil now, and I am sure its going to stay forever. He always taught me the biggest problems, in the simplest way. He removed all panic which could be at that tender age. And then later he has been always there to supported me with my decisions, although at each of it I go against him. Even today its the same.


Piyush Sir & Pandey Sir
They were the first ones to believe, even before me, that I am capable of doing something more than a job at some company. With hell lot of impatience in me it seemed impossible; and they seemed, as if saying some words to encourage me, but now when I am really upto that, I realize they knew me more than I do, and believed me.

Alok Goswami
I interacted with him for a very short period (10 days or so) in a workshop on stochastic processes. At the end of those 10 days I was out of all confusions about whether to go for some professional course (like mca or mba) or continuing with statistics. And that was the time I somehow started liking Stochastic specifically.



Ramanathan Sir: Modest person, accessible to all
Remembering the time, when I was new to department (for M.Sc.) everyone tried to frighten about him in some or the other manner, but despite all, I could never develop any sort of negative feelings. At times when I could not perform well in his subject, there wasn’t a fear of poor scores, but the fear of letting down his expectations. The trust in his eyes was the only thing which encouraged me to not only opt for an extra course, but also make it happen. I am not sure how and what but something in him has always influenced me to be like him.



Marathe Sir: Perfect combination of precision and depth
This is no overstatement. Whatever concepts he taught us were always refined, accurate, with no loopholes in them and expected the same from us. Having three courses under him is really a matter of good fate. And his promise for a course in my much loved topic, Stochastics, (provided I come back) is like a dream come true state. He always shows his confidence in us, which keeps us moving forward. He is the one who has shown me the path towards a research career rather than serving some one.


Kunte Sir: Master of Bridge & Bayesian at the same time
He made me move a step ahead towards my interest. The way he makes things light and smooth going, in a perfect blend of theory with applications, with a tint of historical incidence, makes it impossible for to miss his talks. And after all he has the most delighted laugh with so many “ho-ho”s, and even if its your stupidity that made him laugh you would yourself be laughing in a moment.

Rajarshi Sir
In the 2nd semester I not at all liked him. He is amazing with his brain at applications but I was a sort of scared of him, and neither did I get some very good scores. I even remember dreaming him rusticating me for some mischieve. But now this semester things are completely different. Theres no repulsion. And I have realised he is very helpful and guides very humbly. And above that when he explains applications of stochastic things are so wonderful. And may be my future work would go on under him. :)

Life: As I see it

1)struggle for existence
2)few moments with smile on face and shine in eyes, followed by a lot full of straight face and watery eyes
3)every moment trying to make optimism to overcome the pessimist within
4)a fight with the own self.
5)chasing dreams; mind it not pursuing...times running fast.
6)disappointing those who love you & care for you; and then getting disappointed on this.
7)failed attempt to make others happy.
8)feeling short of word when you have a pile within.
9)a feel to scream out in the ears of those who are not trying to listen to u, pretending as deaf.
10)ending up as a good listener, when wanting to speak out.
11)trying different ways to fill void space inside.
12)trying to make the temper a bit longer as it is too short.
13)wishing to be a kid again, although i have still parts of it within.
14)admiring some criticising others.
15)hating to get identically distributed as all but loving to be independent random variable.
16)being selfish
17)as I thought few people are always gud to us, I was wrong(in reference to previous post)


PS:
1)its too random and I myself is not sure what form of writing was that
2)i'll keep adding what I feel to this list
3)feel free to add ur perceptions

Its so nice of GOD to make a few people who are always good to us..No matter how much we hurt them, they are always thinking for our happiness..
and what do we do other than thinking for ownself...how selfish.!!

Random Walk: A perfect model

Have you ever experienced that when you are trying to run away from something,with all your heart and soul; then all of a sudden over all your efforts you are being puhed towards it with a greater force. Theres nothing new about this.

Last night(it was already dawn infact), I was thinking about a similar situation which has stuck me. I was trying to visualize it, in order to have a solution. Getting just over from the project work, which involved all sorts of probabilities, I ended up giving it a form of random walk. It appeared to me as if I trying to get out of it, and my success in it carries certain probability. But the force which pushes me back has twice the probability of getting succeeded. That means I have landed in asymmetric Random Walk; and it precisely means in the long run I will strike the terrifying situation. Right now this long doesn't seems correct, it seems I will be there shortly. According to a friend my escape velocity is nearly zero.
Although I modelled it successfully but I could not come up with a solution

Note:
0. This post may seem a bit weird, but I am not responsible for it.
1. If any of you can find some more interesting model for a situation, please do tell me; may be its helpful.
2. If theres some error with the formulation, kindly inform me.